It's been a little while since my last post. I just seem to have lost interest in keeping up.
We just got back from a week in Colorado. I hesitated to go, but since it was more of a family vacation, we went. I sure missed my little man when I was there.
We got Masons death certificate last week. I guess it's official now. Now my broke ass can get the little life insurance money on him and I can afford to get the headstone built and set. I could borrow the money from my parents, but it just wouldn't be the same. So I wait.
I'm still just so damned angry. What good could possibly come of this? I'm fucking sick and tired of seeing everyone else just go on. I come in to work (were I USED to be the funny guy, making smartass comments all the time) and just get pissed off at people who expect me to be the same old me.
THAT guy died April 7th.
Didn't they get the memo???
Don't they understand?????
FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
This blog is dedicated to my best friend, my son. Mason was born with HLHS and after 3 open heart surgeries, was given a heart transplant in 2002. All was well until April 7, 2012.....
The only people that will ever understand that you are forever changed are fellow bereaved parents. I am sorry that you and your family have to forever live with the soul numbing absence of your son Mason. I wish I could tell you that it gets easier but it doesn't. It just gets different. I know that probably doesn't provide any solace at all as I didn't take any when I was told that very early into my grief from losing my son Charlie but I have lived it and now I know it. Everyday hurts. And they always will.
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